Have you ever been in a situation where you felt that you are a couple of months away from going broke?
Well, I’m at that stage of my life now.

I remember watching this old Louis CK standup where CK was a moment away from his peak to success, at that particular point he talks about being broke.

Louis CK has this funny bit where he drills down on a scenario of being broke. When you are broke, every odd turns against you. That corporates (banks) hate you for being broke and charge you for being broke (for insufficient funds in the bank) and quality of life starts dipping below the point of being worth the effort.

Now being broke has a lot to do with my spending habits, the bets I took which went terribly wrong (crypto investments stabbed me to death), and the stock market downfall.

Quitting job? Nothing was majorly wrong, In fact, my previous company had given me such a boost in my career & personality that I will always remain grateful for my company and my boss. It is just that I was stuck in “I am not growing” and “I can do better” scenarios.

But before taking the decision, I said no! It is a place that gets hard to live without a consistent income. I quit in hopes to be happier, and less anxious about “who I am”. I don’t necessarily succumb to that capitalistic idea of “finding oneself”.

I just want to learn things outside of a cubicle. I also want to be free from being confined to an income. I thought My energy and my entire existence revolved around my career and never-ending rat race. I feel worried & quite empty, writing this post is harder than you think, I’m sitting in a corner with no one around me and thinking of my fate.

I have lot more friends to share the problem but in reality, I don’t know if anyone can relate to my scenario. A funny thing which I came across recently is that Newyork times has this checklist of things to consider before quitting the job, which I discovered later (Yes, after quitting the job)

Now that I think, Had I got the backup, life would have been a lot easier. Anyway, now that I have moved on I have more things to worry about now.

Moving to a different country?

I always wanted to visit Dubai, It was on my travel checklist. Anyhow, now that I’m here, I might as well discover a job. Anyway, this was the dream city to live in ~(though I haven’t got a job yet). There is some ground reality which I got to know later (moving here), the competition here is ruthless. It is so expensive here that you literally pay money to breathe here.

As a single person, I feel lonely even though I am one call away from my dear ones. I know for a fact that success comes to everyone, even if it’s a dog. All I need to do is take some time and have patience and remain grateful that I just feel blessed to be able to breathe fresh every day, live under a roof, able to have good food, even in current dire times.

┬áMy money doesn’t jiggle, jiggle it folds –

A stranger on Internet

So I guess if am happy, I am living a good life.

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